Wednesday, September 21, 2005
ghost of the past
It's been exactly one year since Ell left. I remembered it better than anyone else because it was on my birthday.
For some fucking reasons, I have not had a happy birthday celebration for the past two years because I was hurt emotionally by people whom I've came to love so much. These individuals that I actually see myself being with for the rest of my life. Not that it matters much because birthday is just like any other day. However, I deserve to be pampered at the very least.
I hate S for bringing back the memories I tried so hard to forget. I've been hurt back then and I just can't believe I allowed him to do this to me now. All I ever wanted was for him to care for me just a little bit more. Using tiredness and not having enough time as excuses are totally ancient by now. I've heard that too many times.
Why does it seems I'm the only one compromising here?
For some fucking reasons, I have not had a happy birthday celebration for the past two years because I was hurt emotionally by people whom I've came to love so much. These individuals that I actually see myself being with for the rest of my life. Not that it matters much because birthday is just like any other day. However, I deserve to be pampered at the very least.
I hate S for bringing back the memories I tried so hard to forget. I've been hurt back then and I just can't believe I allowed him to do this to me now. All I ever wanted was for him to care for me just a little bit more. Using tiredness and not having enough time as excuses are totally ancient by now. I've heard that too many times.
Why does it seems I'm the only one compromising here?
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