Sunday, December 04, 2005
here and back again
It feel as though I've just stopped blogging last week when in fact it's been about 7 weeks! :-D
I'm such a lazy bum. I'm still very much alive and life has been as twisted as ever.
W came back for a 2 week holidays sometime ago. We kissed, we held hands, we teased each other like small kiddos, we're in fact still very much together. But we did not have sex. Just how weird is that I find myself no longer attracted to him the way I used to. Yet, why do I still hold onto this relationship? And how peculiar that deep down inside me, there is a little voice that keeps on reminding me, somehow, I'll ended up marrying this guy. Goodness, NO!
Another thing that I found really disturbing is the fact that both of us are so comfortable and getting used to life without each other for the past 8 months that we have different prorities. He only got me a bouquet of flowers for birthday and I was waiting and waiting...and waiting for my pressie but it never came. Cheap ass bastard. So in return, I got him nothing for his birthday. :-)
I know I'm supposed to be independant now but do bear in mind that I've always been his princess. And I did so much shopping for him whilst he was here. He, on the other hand splurged on himself. Well, it's probably karma for cheating on him. I accepted that.
S has been lovely on the other hand, we've been so much closer compared to before and I'm afraid it's turning into more than sex. It has always been for me since I'm an emotional wreck (sort of) but he seems to be much more attached to me. It's been a good 9 months yet I can't make up my mind. I'm just waiting for someone to find out and tell W that I've been cheating on him. Karma will find its way back to me, mark my words.
Oh, and I've just bid on a tote bag on e-bay and I regretted instantly. I'm praying that someone would outbid me but otherwise, I guess I'll just buy the bag. It isn't that bad. I'll just be $200 poorer (and it's probably a fake too, who knows!). This is probably one of the silliest mistakes I've ever make when it comes to shopping.
I just hope good things will come my way soon. Can't wait for the holidays to begin! I have a very strong feeling that I'll be getting the Ferragamo flats as Christmas pressie. *winks*
I'm such a lazy bum. I'm still very much alive and life has been as twisted as ever.
W came back for a 2 week holidays sometime ago. We kissed, we held hands, we teased each other like small kiddos, we're in fact still very much together. But we did not have sex. Just how weird is that I find myself no longer attracted to him the way I used to. Yet, why do I still hold onto this relationship? And how peculiar that deep down inside me, there is a little voice that keeps on reminding me, somehow, I'll ended up marrying this guy. Goodness, NO!
Another thing that I found really disturbing is the fact that both of us are so comfortable and getting used to life without each other for the past 8 months that we have different prorities. He only got me a bouquet of flowers for birthday and I was waiting and waiting...and waiting for my pressie but it never came. Cheap ass bastard. So in return, I got him nothing for his birthday. :-)
I know I'm supposed to be independant now but do bear in mind that I've always been his princess. And I did so much shopping for him whilst he was here. He, on the other hand splurged on himself. Well, it's probably karma for cheating on him. I accepted that.
S has been lovely on the other hand, we've been so much closer compared to before and I'm afraid it's turning into more than sex. It has always been for me since I'm an emotional wreck (sort of) but he seems to be much more attached to me. It's been a good 9 months yet I can't make up my mind. I'm just waiting for someone to find out and tell W that I've been cheating on him. Karma will find its way back to me, mark my words.
Oh, and I've just bid on a tote bag on e-bay and I regretted instantly. I'm praying that someone would outbid me but otherwise, I guess I'll just buy the bag. It isn't that bad. I'll just be $200 poorer (and it's probably a fake too, who knows!). This is probably one of the silliest mistakes I've ever make when it comes to shopping.
I just hope good things will come my way soon. Can't wait for the holidays to begin! I have a very strong feeling that I'll be getting the Ferragamo flats as Christmas pressie. *winks*
chica bonita fluttered eyelashes @ 22:21| 3 comments
