I'm feeling sad and happy on the same time. He finally wrote me an e-mail and he told me he has got a girlfriend. I wondered how long has he been seeing her before having had the courage to tell me. I'm sad because he has found someone else but I'm also happy because he has the decency to tell me that. I'm just glad that he's honest with me. A friend of mine has warned me that guys tend to avoid the subject if they don't feel comfortable about it and I'm absolutely glad that he proved my friend wrong. I replied him with a fairly long e-mail, telling him things I've always wanted to tell him but I was afraid to. It is funny really because I've always loved him as a friend in the first place, then we realized we have feelings for each other and now, it's all back to square one. The dynamic of our friendship changed when we crossed the line. I still miss him and I probably still love him but what's left for us now is friendship. I don't think I can ever fall in love with him again for the second time.

Hey Ell, if you happen to read this, just to let you know that you've always been and will always be the great person that I think you are. I found myself in you, the other side of me which I've never known. I guess certain things are never meant to be and I'm not gonna ask 'what if' or 'what could have been' because I'm content with the short time we spent together, those beautiful memories will always be in my heart.