Wednesday, June 29, 2005
this holiday season - part two
I can't believe it. Everyone is gone.
Sydney, Melbourne, Kuala Lumpur, Singapore, Tokyo, Hong Kong, Los Angeles.
Last night, bro rang me from the airport, which sort of saved my night just so because I was giving S silent treatment, the cold war I've declared upon him which he wasn't aware of.
Bro: Where are you?
Me: On my way back home from S' place
Bro: Ah... I need your help. Can you check whether my room's door is locked from the toilet?
Me: Huh? What do you need now?
Bro: Oh, I left my small bolster and I want you to pass it to T so that she can bring over to Sydney for me. Hehehe
Me: WHAT? BOLSTER? You're such a baby! God, okay. I'll try to look for it.
I swear his room looked like a big trash. Piles of clothes lying everywhere on the floor, on the bed, on the cupboard, on the chair, on the computer desk. This comes from someone who has more clothes than I do so you can imagine. Papers, porn stash, dvds, rubbish, etc. I have headache just by looking at his room.
T is leaving for Sydney this arvo, she'd be the last one among my friends to leave. So everyone is going away on a holiday of some sort and here I am, stuck in the town. T reckoned I can choose to go back home, which I won't coz I was back home last month. Or go to Munich to visit A, which I can't afford coz I have no money right now.
Now that I'm not talking to S for the moment, I have absolutely no one to hang out with. I just decided to get upset at him over some mundane stuff which I find ridiculous myself but hey, I'm a woman hence I'm allowed to do that. Okay, so it was my fault I admit. But I'm not going to give in that easily in front of him.
Oh well, whatever.
Sydney, Melbourne, Kuala Lumpur, Singapore, Tokyo, Hong Kong, Los Angeles.
Last night, bro rang me from the airport, which sort of saved my night just so because I was giving S silent treatment, the cold war I've declared upon him which he wasn't aware of.
Bro: Where are you?
Me: On my way back home from S' place
Bro: Ah... I need your help. Can you check whether my room's door is locked from the toilet?
Me: Huh? What do you need now?
Bro: Oh, I left my small bolster and I want you to pass it to T so that she can bring over to Sydney for me. Hehehe
Me: WHAT? BOLSTER? You're such a baby! God, okay. I'll try to look for it.
I swear his room looked like a big trash. Piles of clothes lying everywhere on the floor, on the bed, on the cupboard, on the chair, on the computer desk. This comes from someone who has more clothes than I do so you can imagine. Papers, porn stash, dvds, rubbish, etc. I have headache just by looking at his room.
T is leaving for Sydney this arvo, she'd be the last one among my friends to leave. So everyone is going away on a holiday of some sort and here I am, stuck in the town. T reckoned I can choose to go back home, which I won't coz I was back home last month. Or go to Munich to visit A, which I can't afford coz I have no money right now.
Now that I'm not talking to S for the moment, I have absolutely no one to hang out with. I just decided to get upset at him over some mundane stuff which I find ridiculous myself but hey, I'm a woman hence I'm allowed to do that. Okay, so it was my fault I admit. But I'm not going to give in that easily in front of him.
Oh well, whatever.
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Monday, June 27, 2005
this holiday season
My girls will be out of the country for at least 3 weeks.
My bro will be away for 2 weeks.
The usual people I hang out with will be out of town.
I'm glad at least S is around. He's planning to bring me for a short vacation somewhere.
On an unrelated note, I really hope to land a job as soon as possible so I can have money to spend. The thought of living without retail therapy - it is torturing me deep inside.
My bro will be away for 2 weeks.
The usual people I hang out with will be out of town.
I'm glad at least S is around. He's planning to bring me for a short vacation somewhere.
On an unrelated note, I really hope to land a job as soon as possible so I can have money to spend. The thought of living without retail therapy - it is torturing me deep inside.
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Sunday, June 19, 2005
the one with the movies
My all time favourite movies are:
- Breakfast at Tiffany's (1961)
- Dead Poets Society (1989)
- Kill Bill 1 (2003) & 2 (2004)
- Lord of the Rings trilogy (2001, 2002, 2003)
- Mystic River (2003)
- The Silence of The Lamb (1991)
I wouldn't mind:
- Black Hawk Down (2001)
- Good Will Hunting (1997)
- Finding Forrester (2000)
- Hide and Seek (2005)
- Hotel Rwanda (2004)
- Life is Beautiful / La Vita e Bella (1998)
- Man on Fire (2004)
- My Fair Lady (1964)
- Pulp Fiction (1994)
- Schindler's List (1993)
- The Emperor's Club (2002)
- The Godfather (1972)
- The Last Samurai (2003)
- The Pianist (2002)
- The Shawshank Redemption (1994)
- The Village (2004)
- Troy (2004)
I'm not a big fan of Tom Cruise, Brad Pitt, Russell Crowe and Nicole Kidman. In fact I think Nicole Kidman can't act. She's more of a celebrity than an actress. The only movie of hers which I find passable is The Other (2001).
I think Denzel Washington should be the main star of War of the Worlds (2005) rather than Tom Cruise. He and Dakota Fanning have such a brilliant partnership in Man on Fire (2004).
I don't like Natalie Portman.
I think Orlando Bloom is just a pretty face.
And Angelina Jolie is HOT!
I reckon Adam Sandler is just trying too hard to be funny (same with Ashton Kutcher), unlike Vince Vaughn who in my opinion, is a natural joker (he has this mean-jerky look which I couldn't help laughing at the way he looks).
I think Anthony Hopkins, Audrey Hepburn, Denzel Washington, Sean Penn and Tim Robbins are remarkable actors. Quentin Tarantino, Steven Spielberg and M. Night Shyamalan are my favourite directors.
I adore Dakota Fanning. She is a cutie!
I like Seven (1995) but I find it disturbing. I reckon Mona Lisa Smile (2003) is not even half as good as The Emperor's Club (2002) let alone being compared to Dead Poets Society (1989).
The movie that everyone else is making a big fuss about which I've never gotten around watching is Forrest Gump (1994). Oh, and any episode of Star Wars as well.
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Thursday, June 16, 2005
maybe it was just me...
My current diet:
Cheese on toast.
I've been having it for brekkie, lunch and dinner for the past 2 days.
I have a feeling I'm gonna ended up vomiting the next time I'm eating that again.
Mercy.
Cheese on toast.
I've been having it for brekkie, lunch and dinner for the past 2 days.
I have a feeling I'm gonna ended up vomiting the next time I'm eating that again.
Mercy.
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Sunday, June 12, 2005
involuntarily diet
From now onwards till I get a job, I'll be going on instant noodles diet. Honestly speaking, I'm not a big fan of instant noodles. I can practically count with my fingers the number of times I have instant noodles in a year.
That also means I won't be able to afford Baskin-Robbins for now. No retail therapy, daily dosage of skinny lattes or weekly movie outings.
Such is life.
To the kind folks in retail industry: Please please please hire me, although I do not have any retail experience nor connections. I just need to be given an opportunity.
That also means I won't be able to afford Baskin-Robbins for now. No retail therapy, daily dosage of skinny lattes or weekly movie outings.
Such is life.
To the kind folks in retail industry: Please please please hire me, although I do not have any retail experience nor connections. I just need to be given an opportunity.
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Saturday, June 11, 2005
wishful thinking
Last night, I was looking through my photo albums, flipping through and laughing away at some candid shots, photos taken during my graduation, birthday bashes, pubs crawl nites, dinners, etc.
Then I saw it. I can't keep my gaze away and without me knowing, tears started to well up on my eyes.
It was a photo of both of us...
He was hugging me and we were smiling happily posing for the camera.
Somehow my mind flashed back to the conversation I had with A a couple of nights ago. She is a close girlfriend of mine and a friend of his. And somewhat along our conversation when the topic of him came up, I just melted.
It was probably easier for me to just say let it go and trying to convince myself that it is for the better. It's not that I do not want to let go but because I just could not.
It's been almost a year. If time heals the pain then why does my heart still bleeds?
Then I thought of London. His home. And my thoughts get kind of scattered. I will get there someday but I don't think I will see him again.
Then I saw it. I can't keep my gaze away and without me knowing, tears started to well up on my eyes.
It was a photo of both of us...
He was hugging me and we were smiling happily posing for the camera.
Somehow my mind flashed back to the conversation I had with A a couple of nights ago. She is a close girlfriend of mine and a friend of his. And somewhat along our conversation when the topic of him came up, I just melted.
It was probably easier for me to just say let it go and trying to convince myself that it is for the better. It's not that I do not want to let go but because I just could not.
It's been almost a year. If time heals the pain then why does my heart still bleeds?
Then I thought of London. His home. And my thoughts get kind of scattered. I will get there someday but I don't think I will see him again.
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Saturday, June 04, 2005
the one with the ice-cream
I don't know what's got into me but I've finished 4 tubs of Baskin-Robbins in 5 days.
That, really freaks me out.
And amazingly I didn't put on weight at all.
That, really freaks me out.
And amazingly I didn't put on weight at all.
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Wednesday, June 01, 2005
reminiscence
This sudden ice-cream obsession craving thingie, it's been going on for 4 days. And for the past 3 nites that S has failed to deliver a big tub of yummylicious Baskin-Robbins to my door step, he owes me 3 barrels or $100 worth of ice-cream now, whichever he prefers.
I did not even hint him, I told him straight off that I want ice-cream and I want it now. Is it so hard for him to understand that cravings are meant to be attended to immediately? Like pronto! I don't care if people think I'm being unreasonable but cravings are cravings. I don't care if he's busy with his assignment, the ice-cream place is just 10 minutes drive away. I'm just gonna give up on him now. The fact is, he doesn't fucking care about me. Sigh.
Then I thought of W, how he was willing to drive all the way to Macca's whenever I have one of those weird cravings at 3am in the morning. He is the perfect ideal boyfriend who would do anything for me. And me, I'm the selfish good for nothing girlfriend.
*deep breath*
On an unrelated note, memories of Ell keeps on floating back to me for the past few nights. I just don't know why am I still thinking about him that much. But of course, they're all good thoughts. Then it hits me that it's been almost a year since I first met him. One year. 12 months. 52 weeks. 365 days. It just seem...
like yesterday.
Fast forward and here I am...
...wondering... pondering...
whether he still think of me occassionally.
I think he does.
But why? Why things don't always work out the way we want them to? Maybe it's for the best that it remains this way. He will always be that special someone to me.
I did not even hint him, I told him straight off that I want ice-cream and I want it now. Is it so hard for him to understand that cravings are meant to be attended to immediately? Like pronto! I don't care if people think I'm being unreasonable but cravings are cravings. I don't care if he's busy with his assignment, the ice-cream place is just 10 minutes drive away. I'm just gonna give up on him now. The fact is, he doesn't fucking care about me. Sigh.
Then I thought of W, how he was willing to drive all the way to Macca's whenever I have one of those weird cravings at 3am in the morning. He is the perfect ideal boyfriend who would do anything for me. And me, I'm the selfish good for nothing girlfriend.
*deep breath*
On an unrelated note, memories of Ell keeps on floating back to me for the past few nights. I just don't know why am I still thinking about him that much. But of course, they're all good thoughts. Then it hits me that it's been almost a year since I first met him. One year. 12 months. 52 weeks. 365 days. It just seem...
like yesterday.
Fast forward and here I am...
...wondering... pondering...
whether he still think of me occassionally.
I think he does.
But why? Why things don't always work out the way we want them to? Maybe it's for the best that it remains this way. He will always be that special someone to me.
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