Sunday, August 06, 2006
today i've gone haywire
Time seems to be an important essence to me nowadays. I've not been having enough sleep yet procrastinate when I should really be doing my work, rushing for a very important deadline (immigration purpose) in 3 days time. I was given 6 weeks time frame yet I managed to waste 4 weeks doing nothing. >.<
I'm barely halfway done and I'm awaiting my documents from overseas which was only couriered out on Fri. I've asked for extension once, I'm not sure it's wise to ask for a further extension because I'm afraid it might jeopardize my case.
S has been nagging me for the past 6 weeks and I got so fed-up I lied to him that I've actually completed everything that has to be done. I'm bad. I just never learn from the mistakes I made. I'm such a sloth, really. I always do things last minute. :-(
Fuck.
I'm panicking right now that I even dreamt about it last night. Except that the dream was in a full story line from the pieces of stuff that has been worrying me for the past few weeks. I didn't know my brain has capability to do such thing.
Anyway, despite me worrying over my unfinished work, I still manage to try to ignore it and went shopping yesterday. In fact, I've been doing quite a bit of shopping for past one week. Good things come in pair so I got myself 2 pairs of jeans & 2 pairs of sunnies (Jackie O look-alike black sunnies and a pair of white diamante sunnies). That, makes me a very happy girl and $700 poorer.
I did not realized that I do not have enough money in my daily savings account to pay for my sunnies and immediately two thoughts came to my mind, use my credit card or my other savings account which I vowed not to touch as it will incur a substantial amount of fee everytime I withdraw money out from that particular account. In my entire 2 years, I've not touch a single cents from that account and there is only money going in. It feels divine to see I'm being able to save *that* much money. I'm really proud of myself for once. I was about to use my credit card but I changed my mind because that could only mean Pa would be paying for my sunnies.
So I was short of $50 and I asked S to lend me money instead. He, very reluctantly handed it over to me. And he asked question that pissed me off, "When are you going to pay me back?"
What a cheapskate ass. If I were to run away with his money, $50 is seriously nothing. Even $500 is not enough for me, you get what I mean?!!! It's just disheartening that he still doesn't trust me when it comes to money.
Why is it always money?
And if there is someone that should be more cautious here, that would be me because to put it bluntly, I'm richer than him. Even if I sit at home everyday and not earning any income compared to him working every day, I am still r i c h e r than him. Really, it's not like I'm not going to pay him back although I think $50 is not a lot because regardless of what people say, money makes things happen. And that $50 could mean a lot to some people.
Anyway, enough of mindless ranting from me. I need to get ready to meet my girls and then I'm dropping by to see second mum before I come back and finish my work once and for all so that I don't have to worry about it anymore. Yippie!
I'm barely halfway done and I'm awaiting my documents from overseas which was only couriered out on Fri. I've asked for extension once, I'm not sure it's wise to ask for a further extension because I'm afraid it might jeopardize my case.
S has been nagging me for the past 6 weeks and I got so fed-up I lied to him that I've actually completed everything that has to be done. I'm bad. I just never learn from the mistakes I made. I'm such a sloth, really. I always do things last minute. :-(
Fuck.
I'm panicking right now that I even dreamt about it last night. Except that the dream was in a full story line from the pieces of stuff that has been worrying me for the past few weeks. I didn't know my brain has capability to do such thing.
Anyway, despite me worrying over my unfinished work, I still manage to try to ignore it and went shopping yesterday. In fact, I've been doing quite a bit of shopping for past one week. Good things come in pair so I got myself 2 pairs of jeans & 2 pairs of sunnies (Jackie O look-alike black sunnies and a pair of white diamante sunnies). That, makes me a very happy girl and $700 poorer.
I did not realized that I do not have enough money in my daily savings account to pay for my sunnies and immediately two thoughts came to my mind, use my credit card or my other savings account which I vowed not to touch as it will incur a substantial amount of fee everytime I withdraw money out from that particular account. In my entire 2 years, I've not touch a single cents from that account and there is only money going in. It feels divine to see I'm being able to save *that* much money. I'm really proud of myself for once. I was about to use my credit card but I changed my mind because that could only mean Pa would be paying for my sunnies.
So I was short of $50 and I asked S to lend me money instead. He, very reluctantly handed it over to me. And he asked question that pissed me off, "When are you going to pay me back?"
What a cheapskate ass. If I were to run away with his money, $50 is seriously nothing. Even $500 is not enough for me, you get what I mean?!!! It's just disheartening that he still doesn't trust me when it comes to money.
Why is it always money?
And if there is someone that should be more cautious here, that would be me because to put it bluntly, I'm richer than him. Even if I sit at home everyday and not earning any income compared to him working every day, I am still r i c h e r than him. Really, it's not like I'm not going to pay him back although I think $50 is not a lot because regardless of what people say, money makes things happen. And that $50 could mean a lot to some people.
Anyway, enough of mindless ranting from me. I need to get ready to meet my girls and then I'm dropping by to see second mum before I come back and finish my work once and for all so that I don't have to worry about it anymore. Yippie!
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