Wednesday, January 10, 2007
sex, lies and betrayal
2007 for me did not start with a good note.
I found out things I wished I did not. I spent my New Year's Eve with W and the girl he's dating. Not his girlfriend according to him but he's sleeping with her. How awkward was that?
Grr...
And he confessed he's been dating other girls even before we broke up. So at the end we're even.
I feel stupid for feeling guilty all the while and I don't know which so-called friend of ours told him about me cheating on him when he/she doesn't know W has been doing the same.
Our relationship ended with a pretty fair ending. We've both cried, we've both laughed, feeling angry and sad whenever this subject was brought up.
He said I should move on for my own good.
I've already moved on two years ago, darling.
It's just that I love playing the part of being the victim. Just because to get back at you for saying you've tried so hard to save our relationship when in reality it was just a big lie to cover yourself.
I found out things I wished I did not. I spent my New Year's Eve with W and the girl he's dating. Not his girlfriend according to him but he's sleeping with her. How awkward was that?
Grr...
And he confessed he's been dating other girls even before we broke up. So at the end we're even.
I feel stupid for feeling guilty all the while and I don't know which so-called friend of ours told him about me cheating on him when he/she doesn't know W has been doing the same.
Our relationship ended with a pretty fair ending. We've both cried, we've both laughed, feeling angry and sad whenever this subject was brought up.
He said I should move on for my own good.
I've already moved on two years ago, darling.
It's just that I love playing the part of being the victim. Just because to get back at you for saying you've tried so hard to save our relationship when in reality it was just a big lie to cover yourself.
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Wednesday, December 13, 2006
i dislike you, you and you...
I HATE rude people in general. Wherever I go, I always seem to bump into them. Okay, it was since last week. For example, last nite a customer from hell came into the restaurant. I was helping out second mum.
CFH: Do you have skim milk? Don't tell me you still DON'T have it. I want skim milk with my coffee!!!!!
Me: Sorry, we only use Hi-Lo milk. Hi-Lo is skimmed anyway.
CFH: Now, you're wrong. You could be sue under Trade regulations Act yada yada for making that statement. You know I could sue you for saying that? Hi-Lo milk is not skim milk!
Me: I didn't say Hi-Lo milk is skim milk. I said it is skimmed.
CFH refused to listen and continue to blab and threatened to sue me and that he was right and how great he was to prove a point to me that he was right. I was like... whatever. Go for it.
And he just stormed out. Bleh.
CFH: Do you have skim milk? Don't tell me you still DON'T have it. I want skim milk with my coffee!!!!!
Me: Sorry, we only use Hi-Lo milk. Hi-Lo is skimmed anyway.
CFH: Now, you're wrong. You could be sue under Trade regulations Act yada yada for making that statement. You know I could sue you for saying that? Hi-Lo milk is not skim milk!
Me: I didn't say Hi-Lo milk is skim milk. I said it is skimmed.
CFH refused to listen and continue to blab and threatened to sue me and that he was right and how great he was to prove a point to me that he was right. I was like... whatever. Go for it.
And he just stormed out. Bleh.
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Wednesday, November 22, 2006
today i'm a super shopaholic
This is the only time of the year that I can't control myself no matter how I try to.
During the David Jones two day sale last weekend, I managed to get the heels I've been eyeing for since last month. I thought there wouldn't be anymore sale at DJ till Boxing Day which isn't gonna help anyway because I'm going for another vacation and it's 25% off! I saved quite a lot of money so I'm one happy girl.
Anyway, Myer is having a one day sale this Friday and I can't wait. I'm eyeing a new ipod (I'm a nano girl!) and no, not the pink one! The ipod won't go on sale but the accessories would so it's a good bargain I reckon. DJ had the same promo too last weekend but since they didn't approve my credit card (the sales girl convinced me as long as I meet all 4 criterias they had, I'd be fine)... I bought the heels there because Myer doesn't carry that particular designer range. Maybe because they think my financial situation isn't glam enough for them which doesn't make sense because it says as long as the applicant earn above $20K p.a.? The only reason I wanted the card is because I wanna know the promos firsthand. Pfft! The only place I'd put myself in debt is the institution called the daddy so I do not understand why my application got rejected. Boo hoo. I still can't believe it. I have pride too and I feel so rejected, as though I'm not good enough for them. You know where am I coming from? No?
Back to Myer upcoming sale, I'm after a couple of perfumes and some new bags and clutches too. And shoes. I saw a pair of black slip on heels which I wouldn't pay full price for but if they're 50% then why not? And 40% off RRP all books! Wohoo!!!!
Oh God, I still haven't fully recovered from the time I walked out from Alannah Hill spending over $1K last month and additional $380 during their clearance sale last week. But thank God, no more debts. Phew...And no, I'm not buying Alannah Hill stuff ever again. Some of them were cutesy little gifts for my sisters and baby cousin (she's 12 but to me, always a baby!). Did I also mentioned I bought 3 watches since I'm going away on holiday and conveniently donated money to the duty free store. I still have one of the watches on lay-by.
That's it. No more shopping till June. Oh, this of course excludes any work clothes and a spanking new digi cam.
During the David Jones two day sale last weekend, I managed to get the heels I've been eyeing for since last month. I thought there wouldn't be anymore sale at DJ till Boxing Day which isn't gonna help anyway because I'm going for another vacation and it's 25% off! I saved quite a lot of money so I'm one happy girl.
Anyway, Myer is having a one day sale this Friday and I can't wait. I'm eyeing a new ipod (I'm a nano girl!) and no, not the pink one! The ipod won't go on sale but the accessories would so it's a good bargain I reckon. DJ had the same promo too last weekend but since they didn't approve my credit card (the sales girl convinced me as long as I meet all 4 criterias they had, I'd be fine)... I bought the heels there because Myer doesn't carry that particular designer range. Maybe because they think my financial situation isn't glam enough for them which doesn't make sense because it says as long as the applicant earn above $20K p.a.? The only reason I wanted the card is because I wanna know the promos firsthand. Pfft! The only place I'd put myself in debt is the institution called the daddy so I do not understand why my application got rejected. Boo hoo. I still can't believe it. I have pride too and I feel so rejected, as though I'm not good enough for them. You know where am I coming from? No?
Back to Myer upcoming sale, I'm after a couple of perfumes and some new bags and clutches too. And shoes. I saw a pair of black slip on heels which I wouldn't pay full price for but if they're 50% then why not? And 40% off RRP all books! Wohoo!!!!
Oh God, I still haven't fully recovered from the time I walked out from Alannah Hill spending over $1K last month and additional $380 during their clearance sale last week. But thank God, no more debts. Phew...And no, I'm not buying Alannah Hill stuff ever again. Some of them were cutesy little gifts for my sisters and baby cousin (she's 12 but to me, always a baby!). Did I also mentioned I bought 3 watches since I'm going away on holiday and conveniently donated money to the duty free store. I still have one of the watches on lay-by.
That's it. No more shopping till June. Oh, this of course excludes any work clothes and a spanking new digi cam.
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Monday, November 20, 2006
tonight i've finally let him go
W and I haven't really officially call off our relationship despite the fact that it was over even before we realized it.
We have finally let go the very thing that we've shared for the past six years. It's been beautiful all these while but knowing that we've changed so much in the past couple of years that things cannot simply be like the way it used to be. From the moment Ell walked into my life, my feelings for W has never been quite the same again. My heart has found its way to let Ell go but with W it's just not as simple as a summer fling.
Tonight, I feel a sense of loss which is indescribable. After you've been with someone for that long, having loved that person for who he is, it just seem that breaking up is the last thing to be expected yet when two souls no longer has that connection, there's no point holding on to it just for the sake of holding on thinking that it would eventually be revive.
I smile when you told me that I'll always be your soulmate because there is no one in this world who understands you as much as I do. You will always be that special someone to me too, darling.
We have finally let go the very thing that we've shared for the past six years. It's been beautiful all these while but knowing that we've changed so much in the past couple of years that things cannot simply be like the way it used to be. From the moment Ell walked into my life, my feelings for W has never been quite the same again. My heart has found its way to let Ell go but with W it's just not as simple as a summer fling.
Tonight, I feel a sense of loss which is indescribable. After you've been with someone for that long, having loved that person for who he is, it just seem that breaking up is the last thing to be expected yet when two souls no longer has that connection, there's no point holding on to it just for the sake of holding on thinking that it would eventually be revive.
I smile when you told me that I'll always be your soulmate because there is no one in this world who understands you as much as I do. You will always be that special someone to me too, darling.
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Saturday, October 21, 2006
today i believe most people are ignorant
I really do not know what have this world comes to.
I never fail to notice that most people sitting on the seats clearly labelled Priority Seatings do not carry a child, pregnant, disabled or having a single strand of grey hair or wrinkles on the face. Look, even if you're 45 years old, you're not consider old GET IT?
The worst offenders are kids in their 20s. The most ironic part is, most of the time, there were plenty of seats at the back. So hard really does it takes a clearly healthy person to walk to the back of the bus.
Yesterday, I saw this lady parked her big bum on one of the priority seats next to her mum who is clearly not even old. So an old man board the bus and it was obvious the man has restriction when it comes to walking yet she didn't move or even offer him the seat. Instead the old man is forced to take a seat all the way at the back. And guess what? Both the lady and her mother were just getting off after a few stops in CBD area. Do you know really need a seat to begin with? Shame on you!
Anyway, the situation is worst back in Malaysia and Singapore. One of my friends relate this story to me when she was working in Singapore and back then when she was 6 months pregnant with her first child, no one would actually offer her a seat most of the time whenever she takes public transport unless she asked for it. God! Especially guys, I cannot stand it if guys just pretend that a pregnant woman does not exist. How ungentlemanly is that?
Okay, it's shopping time. Yippie! (I know it's totally unrelated with this post but just so because shopping makes me happy!)
I never fail to notice that most people sitting on the seats clearly labelled Priority Seatings do not carry a child, pregnant, disabled or having a single strand of grey hair or wrinkles on the face. Look, even if you're 45 years old, you're not consider old GET IT?
The worst offenders are kids in their 20s. The most ironic part is, most of the time, there were plenty of seats at the back. So hard really does it takes a clearly healthy person to walk to the back of the bus.
Yesterday, I saw this lady parked her big bum on one of the priority seats next to her mum who is clearly not even old. So an old man board the bus and it was obvious the man has restriction when it comes to walking yet she didn't move or even offer him the seat. Instead the old man is forced to take a seat all the way at the back. And guess what? Both the lady and her mother were just getting off after a few stops in CBD area. Do you know really need a seat to begin with? Shame on you!
Anyway, the situation is worst back in Malaysia and Singapore. One of my friends relate this story to me when she was working in Singapore and back then when she was 6 months pregnant with her first child, no one would actually offer her a seat most of the time whenever she takes public transport unless she asked for it. God! Especially guys, I cannot stand it if guys just pretend that a pregnant woman does not exist. How ungentlemanly is that?
Okay, it's shopping time. Yippie! (I know it's totally unrelated with this post but just so because shopping makes me happy!)
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Sunday, October 15, 2006
today i shop for christmas outfit
I was meant to find a black high heels for work and I ended up trotting into Alannah Hill and got myself a cocktail dress instead. Yippie!!
All I need now is a matching heels and clutch in gold. Spend more money again buying unnecessary stuff but the dress is so gorgeous I feel so happy just by looking at it. I'm really not a big fan of Alannah Hill. She has all this flowery wacky colour combination prints and beads and what not but her chiffony items are actually quite eye candy like, hence my dress.
So tomorrow, I'm back on my black high heels hunt.
Wish me luck because I most certainly need it!
Goodnight!
All I need now is a matching heels and clutch in gold. Spend more money again buying unnecessary stuff but the dress is so gorgeous I feel so happy just by looking at it. I'm really not a big fan of Alannah Hill. She has all this flowery wacky colour combination prints and beads and what not but her chiffony items are actually quite eye candy like, hence my dress.
So tomorrow, I'm back on my black high heels hunt.
Wish me luck because I most certainly need it!
Goodnight!
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Monday, October 09, 2006
today i heart suzy smith
Whee!!! I finally got myself a huge ass black bag, although it's not a tote. It's a large hobo with gold studs and hardware for the very affordable price of $89.95. The only downside is, it's not leather. Which means it wouldn't last as long if I'm gonna use it as a trash around bag. I'm beaming right now if you could see me.
Anyway, I'm close to bankruptcy right now but I need some new shoes and work clothes. And bags. Okay, not necessarily bags because I've just received two on my birthday. I'm saving money for a new digicam and mobile phone. I need about $1000 for both of them. My sisters birthday are coming up. I am thinking of getting a Tiffany sterling silver necklace for the youngest one and a tote bag for uni for the older one. So that's roughly about $600. And Christmas... Can I just disappear during the Christmas period? Hohoho...
And I need to save enough for my Europe trip next year when sis is studying in London. UGH. But at least it's not till September.
I really don't know how can I save money unless I'm earning a huge ass salary which I'm not (I'm STILL sitting below $40K p.a.). Or swiping Pa's credit card which has been lying somewhere in the drawer. Pa is getting older and I should be the one giving him pocket money instead of the other way round. Or buying clothes from Target which I'll never ever wear. First of all, It's not US Target. You don't get Isaac Mizrahi stuff. And secondly, the quality of some of the products are quite shittie and over-priced.
I also have this bad habit of needing matching shoes or accessories or whatever if I buy a certain item and I'll go hunt and look for the matching accessories and ended up spending more money. For example, I got a red bag as a pressie and I'm looking for a pair of red shoes (Saw a pair of red suede flats in Zomp for $90) before I could use the bag. I really can die living like this because I just simply can't walk out with mis-matched outfit. So tell me, how can I save money unless I go stark naked?
Anyway, I'm close to bankruptcy right now but I need some new shoes and work clothes. And bags. Okay, not necessarily bags because I've just received two on my birthday. I'm saving money for a new digicam and mobile phone. I need about $1000 for both of them. My sisters birthday are coming up. I am thinking of getting a Tiffany sterling silver necklace for the youngest one and a tote bag for uni for the older one. So that's roughly about $600. And Christmas... Can I just disappear during the Christmas period? Hohoho...
And I need to save enough for my Europe trip next year when sis is studying in London. UGH. But at least it's not till September.
I really don't know how can I save money unless I'm earning a huge ass salary which I'm not (I'm STILL sitting below $40K p.a.). Or swiping Pa's credit card which has been lying somewhere in the drawer. Pa is getting older and I should be the one giving him pocket money instead of the other way round. Or buying clothes from Target which I'll never ever wear. First of all, It's not US Target. You don't get Isaac Mizrahi stuff. And secondly, the quality of some of the products are quite shittie and over-priced.
I also have this bad habit of needing matching shoes or accessories or whatever if I buy a certain item and I'll go hunt and look for the matching accessories and ended up spending more money. For example, I got a red bag as a pressie and I'm looking for a pair of red shoes (Saw a pair of red suede flats in Zomp for $90) before I could use the bag. I really can die living like this because I just simply can't walk out with mis-matched outfit. So tell me, how can I save money unless I go stark naked?
chica bonita fluttered eyelashes @ 13:35| 2 comments